March is the tensest month

today I had the thought I hadn't had in a few years, the thought that propelled me back to Alaska in 2012: I don't like how this city makes me feel. it's horrible and traitorous to even ponder that, but it's sometimes fucking true. it's not the rain or the grey or the indifference or the various sociological disparities; it's that it's too fucking easy to be an introvert here. 

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I said "for fuck's sake" out loud. 

the fancypants end of Capitol Hill. I only just learned that 65% of Seattle's residential areas are still zoned for single-family housing. 

15th & Thomas, complete with pillows, regal in the rain. I took this in the dark. 

and a cat I passed on 17th today, riding out the angsty weather. it was nonchalant as fuck. 

"there is a continual struggle in the human brain as to whether the old or the new brain is in charge." Ray Kurzweil