Sunday, December 27, 2015

applying knowledge

vaguely chronological shrapnel from the last (and inexplicably zesty!) ~two weeks: 

I passed this, kept walking, thought wait, and turned back half a block later to get this picture. I love everything about this view: the vague similarities in shapes, the wires, the three-nesses, the peeling paint, the chimneys at the same angle as the towers. 
when I lived across the street from these towers (from the opposite vantage point) I'd go onto the roof deck at night and watch the moon rise among them. 
sunset from the warm laziness of my lair. 
a saucy bannister. if this bannister could talk, it'd say "well hello." 
a lone figure cavorting wetly. the lights made everything edgeless.
I love this city. 
every time I pass this building, if I'm (hopefully) alone on the sidewalk, I sing its name out loud. sometimes I mix it up a bit and sing it to the "Ricola" ad instead. why do I fucking admit this shit? 
they were human-sized gloves, so one can only assume they were made with kittens. 
we waste classy food in my neighborhood. 
another filter of the minivanned Trumpet. traffic was completely stopped, I should point out. this is alongside Fife, naturally. 
three fucking pillows. 
entropy's other spot is above the cabinets. I took all the doors off this week (I eventually do that at most places I live) and noticed her year's worth of disgustingness seeping through. 
this is my palatial kitchen now! remember Growing Pains, how they had a fucking sofa in their kitchen? 
Xmas stroll at Golden Gardens. the tide was mostly in. 
it was desolate and cold. a dog in a Santa coat ran ahead of its owners. I stood in the water in my boots and thought about how we're all gonna eventually end up as like, sand, you know?  
currently occurring. occurrently? the lair smells like love. 
"instead of oxygen and stress, she thought now of hushed and quiet words: glide, fur, banana, peace." 
E. L. Konigsburg 

Sunday, December 13, 2015

titles narrow your possibilities

today is my 60th day without alcohol. 

I am uncontrollably grinning as I write that!

And I am deeply astonished and humbled to report that there is nothing negative happening in my life right now. I desperately don't want to jinx anything, and in mere nanoseconds I'll likely regress to my typical habit of imagining all the shit that can go wrong or if I have a brain tumor or every stupid thing I've ever done... but for one warily blissful moment documented in print, fuck it! I imagine a horrible motivational poster:
jeg er meget glad, eller noget.
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maybe it's because I never cook that I am constantly impressed by the magical shit that happens when I do.
me and my arrow. 
in my neighborhood. 
and today's very brief sunrise. 
"a human being is not mindless or mentally deficient without language, but he is severely restricted in the range of his thoughts, confined, in effect, to an immediate, small world." Oliver Sacks 

Thursday, November 26, 2015

the last day

the Danish Design Museum: the fucking apex of my trip. funnily enough, I was wandering aimlessly and totally stumbled onto it by mistake. I'd wanted to go but had gotten distracted over the past several days. fate, you saucy wench! 

the front room: multiple lounge chairs and me. and over there, them. this chair was the only one with the lip at the base. 
apparently the "next wave" of design is/will focus on sustainable and recycled products. these are made from plastic. 
this ladder. 
stacked paper and corrugated cardboard. 
the Utopia and Reality room. 
the off-centeredness bothers me less now. 
the poster in the back is for a corn festival.
the three graces! I fucking love Arne Jacobsen's work and here it is! I felt like a goddamn schoolgirl! the Drop (1958), the Egg (1957), and the Swan (1959)! 
a Henning Larsen chair. 
this epic piano constructed of steel, leather, wood, and polymer. 
I love the aesthetics of little, disposable things: packaging, labels... for example, directly outside the museum was this fantastic cup in this petally trash can. someone took the time to design these things! it didn't have to be attractive, or even terribly functional, but it is. it's exhilarating to be reminded of how many lovely details constantly surround us for the sheer sake of pleasure. 
and abutting the museum, tenacious bucolia! 
flowers commemorating the Paris attacks. I didn't see if this was the French embassy or not; I was distracted by the loud Americans behind me. "I can do a pretty good French accent" the dude said, and then he did, that "hoh hoh!" laugh- so fucking inappropriate in front of this, of all places. I was embarrassed by proxy. I can hear fellow Americans noisily babbling half a block away, and most of their conversations are inane. sometimes traveling makes me feel bitchy and prissy and yes, incredibly self-judgmental of my own jhypocrisy.
it was a nice day. 
Centrum. 
the blue study. 
Arne Jorgensen designed the SAS hotel in 1959. 
this is its cafe. note the vertical swings of Tivoli Gardens in the reflection! that was a happy accident. I'm in there too, somewhere. 
the SAS lobby. I think it's owned by fucking Radisson now. a guy came over to assist me. "I'm just here for the design!" I said cheerily. he smiled and walked away. 
lobby stairs Worthy of a Dramatic Descent. 
the building in which I have dwelt for 
the past interesting week.
his door is on the left.
it's a Shallow Grave kinda stairwell.
Vesterbro at night.

Wednesday, November 25, 2015

eventual coalescence

I just (finally!) had a marvelous conversation with the dude whose lair I've been festering at. I humbly retract my original impressions. he's lived in Copenhagen for about 20 years- born and raised near the Pyrenees in southwest France. he finds it "pretty boring" here, too flat, not enough places to go if you want actual nature. but he has three kids, so it's a good city for them. his former brother-in-law lives near Seattle and he'd move there "in a heartbeat." he asked if a lot of people in the States were in the "tea party" and (I paraphrase) what the fuck is up with us and guns. "if they want guns so badly, I think, they must be a crazy person" he said. "but they probably think I'm a crazy person too." 

he likes and, if given the opportunity, would move to the east or west coasts "and maybe Chicago or New Orleans" but made a face when discussing the rest of the country. "and Miami, absolutely not" he said. it's so fucking fascinating to hear outside opinions about familiar topics. hell, it was really fucking nice to just have a conversation in person with another human being. he's actually a really cool guy. I feel much less awkward now. 

I told him how I'm studying Danish but it's difficult to speak and he laughed and said "you know only five million people speak Danish, right? why would you want to learn it?"
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I bought fucking gummy candy at one of the amazing ubiquitous candy shoppes today and asked the guy working there in Danish, without thinking about it, where the bags were. it was a proud moment! unfortunately, they were right in front of my face so my glee was brief. 

I also did not get lost once today. 

this is the first day I have actually felt confident, or *confidenter*.... just in time to leave. damn it. now I know what to expect and what to improve upon for when, not if, I come back. this city and this trip have filled in a lot of tiny gaps and answered a lot of questions I didn't quite know I had. it's been hard and lonely and frustrating and sad and clarifying and ultimately really fucking incredibly great. 
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the past ~36 hours in Denmark ensued thusly: blearily narcissistic yesterday morning in his mirrored refrigerator door. I'm still sleeping like shite, but it's beginning to feel more normal. I actually remembered a dream from that night, my first in weeks- something about a toilet, as most of my dreams inexplicably are. it's always a clean toilet, but it's always public and I'm always like fuck, this is gonna be really unpleasant to use... analytically speaking, the basis of nearly all non-ecstatic dreams involve anxiety, manifested through disintegrating teeth or being chased or falling or staring nervously at uncomfortably located toilets. so I spent a while pondering what, if anything, I was anxious about. and after I did that, the day became fucking awesome. 
it's a funky lair. there are pictures of his daughter and pieces of her artwork scattered amid his sloppy welter of bachelorhood. the article in the foreground involved rating the various local grocery stores. The headline translates roughly as "see who's won." 
on a vaguely related note, all the (exclusively Danish-language) media I've seen has very few people or stories I recognize. one cover had Angelina Jolie and another had Kate Middleton, but otherwise- yeah, apparently our vulgar vapid exports mostly wilt when they hit the pond. 
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more street art. 
there are lots of snail motifs around Copenhagen. 
Christianshavn. it's supposed to be the bohemian enclave of the city, but when I wandered through it was deserted and full of construction rubble and pissing sideways rain. 
one does not realize how fucking massive swans really are. they're the size of Australian cattle dogs. every one I've seen is banded on their legs. 
churches like this are everywhere. this one, in Christianshavn, was right next to a schoolyard filled with recessing kids screeching in the mud. 
everything you'd expect. 
tacky, festive, touristy Strøget. I took this hastily and really like how it turned out. 
Danish dissonance! 
today I took the train to Køge. it's about 30 miles south of Copenhagen and has the country's largest town square and "some of the best-preserved medieval architecture." in the 17th century they burned 16 people at the stake here. 
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I love trains. 
this unfortunate situation. 
I like this art. it's one of those grocery stores, the aforementioned newspaper rating of which I can no longer recall.
random Køge house with a fucking stellar sunporch. from the street I could see its fusty lamps and the chairs covered with sheepskin pelts. I see shit like this and automatically manifest my alternate sunporch-dwelling reality, involving herb gardens and hammocks and a goddamn cage of finches. I'm laying in a dusty beam of sun and someone's making me breakfast and I'm like "baby, you're the best." 
straight lines. 
I like the way the prow of this house fits the curvature of the sidewalk. 
Køge is small, about 35,000 people. it seems like a place for older people and upper-middle-class day-trippers and, based on the evidence during my stroll, a lot of dogs with malformed bowel movements. 
a herd of neon ducklings! 
this is not cropped at all. 
every week there is a Wednesday and Saturday market. I suspect it's far larger and more boisterous when it's not pissing rain. 
a lady was roasting nuts and handing out samples- some of the almonds were anise-flavored and still warm. various bulbs are also for sale everywhere. multiple vendors sell them on the street in Copenhagen and Malmö too. 
this is one of my favorite colors. 
erected 1636. the walls of these buildings bow out slightly. everything looks slightly drunken. 
I have to touch everything. wonder what else happened right here? this shit's nearly 400 years old! 
when you at the club texting yo friends cuz they late. 
I love the Scandinavian eavelessness. 
not a good name for a massage business. this is on the main Copenhagen shopping/tourist strip. surely someone knew better. 
breakfast. the music they were playing was so dreadful (Regina Spektor?, I'm sorry, but hell no) that I left as soon as I was finished. 
Tony Abbott with a man-bun? 
Nørrebro.
this window. 
the swans sidle up to the shore when people approach. 
Vesterport. I asked for milk and she brought me a tiny pitcher with hot steamed milk, and a spoon, and a hazelnut truffle! oh Europe, you know how easily seduced I am. be gentle with my susceptibility.
1/2 liter milk- every day, all your life. what large permanent neon sign graces your city's thoroughfare? 
this is going on my tombstone. 
there's this awesome chain here called Tiger. it's like a much smaller IKEA crossed with Daiso- really cheap vaguely useful cute shit. they're everywhere and sell things in 10DKR increments (~$1.25) and even though they all contain the same merchandise I stop into every one I pass and buy at least something. (candy? a tin box painted to look like a cassette tape? a generic 230v charger for my phone?) and they always play oldies. today i ducked into one primarily because I was cold and they started playing "lollipop", and damned if the prim-looking older Danish women next to me didn't start gigglingly singing along. 
every time I remember this I fucking smile.